crazy / toxic

The past few weeks, my days have always been filled up with meetings and non-stop internals with the creatives. My schedule has gone from crazy to outrageously insane! Suddenly I find myself scheduling early morning meetings now just to accommodate it. And worse, thinking about work at night when I should be sleeping (gasp!). It's been crazy toxic here.

Wall to wall meetings and endless deadlines, these are things i have to face daily. Before, though the load was heavy, I still was able to find some time to check my personal web-based mails and respond to it, play Dream Day Wedding and even chat a little with Lot, but now I just find myself staring at the glass window and looking tired and harassed. At this tiny little corner where I am seated I am always glued. I can't move around until I have to go up to the creatives. It's that bad. I have to email, remind and send gazillion of things!

Oh well. I shouldn't complain. I should feel lucky that I have work here. (hehe drama) And instead I should work harder.

Yettie, our newest AE in the team has reported to work yesterday. I am looking forward to unloading some work to her. But I was scanning through the load, I find myself at a standstill. I've become too attached to my work that I don't want to pass on some load to her. Yikes. What's wrong with me. Here's help offering itself to me and here i am saying no?!

Gen will impose and then I give her work. If Gen makes it non-negotiable then i will force myself to give her work. Now let me see do that.

I think if there's one thing that's crazy toxic here, it must be me.